I am doing well, right now. Things have been crazy this year. I know I am suppose to keep growing but I have been keeping a secret. Telling you this now, its hard trying to be strong.Sometimes feels like the people that you show love to have other plans behind your back. The life I live has changed me forever. I have told people that I had something terrible happen in my child hood. I was molested when I was 5 years old. I was told by my older cousin that if I said anything he would kill my family and it would be my fault, and he put the gun to my head. I still have nightmares about the hurt. So its so hard for me to trust people at times. I have lived a life of pain, and betrayal. When I trust someone and they lie, or go behind my back it makes me feel like that 5 year old girl in the bathroom. That little girl that has often wondered, maybe I have done something wrong? I have witnessed my best friends baby die, as her jump rope got caught on a nail and twisted around the neck. I have learned that people will always show their true colors.
Some people make you feel like you are nothing. They just lie, and show no loyalty. I am hurt, that one person in my life, is gone. We were so close. I have always felt that if you are a friend, you make sure that person appreciates and shows you love. When someone questions your friendship, they were never your friend. Some people will hurt you and laugh behind your back. I never worry about revenge. Karma is real.Hate in your heart only consumes you. Why is messymandella telling you this? Everyone should know your story, and how you survived. It took time for me to realize that being molested wasn’t my fault. If someone chills, laughs, and then question your love or friendship then you don’t truly have a friend. Some people get stuck in situations because of their ability to deceive you only to let you down. That is why this song is speaking to me right now. I know people change for the worst. If you have a friend that has changed for the worst, be truthful. NO ONE SHOULD TREAT YOU LIKE YOU ARE NOTHING. When someone hurts me I turn into that crying little girl. I will never respect people that hurt me , and accuse me of something. I have so many wonderful people in my life. You should never blame yourself, when people hurt you. As the terrific things start to happen, you will find out who you are around.
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